Monday, June 3, 2013

Red Road - Becoming Conscious

Become Conscious
Willy Johnson

Fear
Love
Happiness
Disruption
Stress
Unbalanced
Hurt
Sensitive
Confusion
Heroes are not perfect
Cope
Fantasy
Be a man
Be tough, rough
Confusion
Emotional wreck
Aware of good&bad
Get away from fathers alcoholism
Destroyed family
Escape = boarding school
2 vehicles - spoiled. Ambitious
 Parents.  Both worked.
Catholic school-doubt!
KOMA radio at night - rock&roll
Believing I'm smart/smarter than everybody. Sexual abuse at the school by the nuns...didn't realize it.
Music trumpet-fun.   Resentment; confession -- catechism--big turn off--abuse&shame, St Michael's AZ Private school -education important St Mary's downtown ABQ (big difference from Isleta Pueblo) ----very good experience - urban - learned street life - all kinds of people - downtown ABQ cool.  How to live like a non-Indian. 

Pregnant@ end of HS.
Guitar player.

Sex-drug-RR --- lost all fear while living the R&R lifestyle ----w/ a child +2 after HS.  Still coming down after the summer of love

Failed husband and father

(Sex, drug, R&R) * 2

Moved to SFO - further away than  DAL!  Always trying to escape.

Something missing in life...

Hit bottom
Spiritual awaking
Native am AA
At AA meeting I asked, "Who's in charge?"  I was told, "God - but I'll sign your paper".

No comments:

Post a Comment